Wedding Dais..

dis are a few examples for ma wedding dais.. heez.. early planning.. haha..


sexy fuschia wedding dais by kasaisayang


incertitude by daun wedding


eclipse by daun wedding


dis is by estheme wedding


dis is also by estheme wedding


by estheme wedding


by estheme wedding


black n gold by estheme wedding


amourous by daun wedding

dis is juz a few.. juz do an early planning.. so dat i dun have to rush wen da tym comes.. tul tak bie? hehehe.. so bie, dis are juz sum examples of dais dat i prefer.. ada lah lagi.. takkan nak letak suma kan.. da one yg ada crystal cam teardrops tu tak dpt jumpa.. next tym i'll show u k.. peace.. heez..

Dearest Cousin admitted to AH..

hmmz.. went to visit kak suzi at Alexandra Hospital juz now wif mama.. suspect of appendix.. dis kata perut dia rasa sakit.. nak diri tegak tak leh.. duduk pun tak leh.. totally in pain lah.. hmmz.. kesian kan.. hmmz.. visit her for a while den we off to Arab St..

dad craves for nasi briyani n murtabak dis tym.. so we got it for him.. reached home, mum feed dad.. itz good dat he can eat a few spoon of rice.. heez.. he ate da murtabak but wanna throw up.. so we only let him eat da rice lor.. hmmz.. afta eating, i feed dad da medicine den let him rest.. hmmz..

now im updating dis blog.. so read wateva dat prince msg me thru tag.. erm.. dear wanna go zoo ek? can lah.. u decide on da date k.. muackz!!! love ya lots.. heez.. ok, i got nothing else to update.. cheers!!

Happy Bdae Papa n Izzah...!!

yesterday was ma papa n ma cousin izzah's bdae... yeap.. it falls on da same day.. so ok lah.. heez.. mum was on leave ytd.. coz she was sick.. so went out to Jurong Point wif her.. wanna search for present n cake for da bdae man n gal.. haha..

i managed to find espresso coffee maker for dad..



while mum bought for dad a bouquet of purple roses... sweet kan... hehe



so done findin for presents, we went to banquet to eat 1st.. bought some food for papa den we go find for da cake.. i chose chocolate fudge.. looks so yummmmmmyyy..!! hehe...



done buying everything, we went back home.. coz ma relatives were oreadi at ma house.. called ika to come down to help us wif da things.. coz we bought too much stuff oreadi.. haha.. reached ma blk n i saw ika talkin to sumone who is on a bike.. n it was him.. was shocked lah of coz.. wondering wat he doin der.. hmmz.. so reached home, asked ika wat were dey chatting about.. den she told me lah dat he was askin bout papa.. hmmz.. he saw me dat he wanna go off oreadi.. oh well.. mama was der too.. so of coz lah he wanna go off.. sheesh.. but nvm.. dun wanna talk bout him oreadi.. hmmz..

at home, me n ika try out da espresso coffee maker.. tried to make foam wif da milk but unable too.. oh well.. wen i got da money, i wanna find for da good quality one.. heez.. so we made cafe mocha for ma pak ngah.. asked him how it taste lyk, he said itz nice.. yey!! 1st attempt a success.. haha.. cleaning up everything, den we go mkn.. heez.. cut cake n so on.. heez.. so around 7.30pm i went out to go for ma meeting..

miss all of dem seh.. hehe.. reached da meeting place, saw em.. if can i wanna hug all of em.. haha.. so went in da room, wait for meeting to start.. den around 8 plus prince came.. yay!! but too bad for him lor.. he have to wait for me till 10.30pm.. hehe.. kesian kan.. dah lah sejuk.. lapar.. so da kesian.. heez.. wateva we discuss bout in da meeting is totally bout da upcoming comps.. n da rest, i dun need to type it.. itz juz between me n da group.. so ok.. once da meeting end, me rush out to meet prince.. member muka bingit seh.. heez.. alah.. sorie lah bie.. oreadi inform u earlier wat dat da meeting gonna end at 10.30pm.. so not ma fault.. hehe..

so me accompany prince to eat at MacD.. me not feelin well at dat moment.. got migraine n it hurts to da max.. jln pun dah zig zag.. hehe.. so we sat down sumwhere, chit chat n prince help to massage.. he said i got too much air.. well, of coz lah.. campur ngan papa nye angin.. pe tak nye.. haha.. we went off from der around 1.30am.. but me still havin migraine lor.. cant tahan liao.. reached home jek terus tido.. hehe.. woke up still in pain.. haiyo.. betul peh sakit kepala aku kali nie.. sheesh.. hmmz.. k lah.. wanna take a rest.. head still pain.. cheers...!!

busybodies...

hmmz.. 1st of all, i wanna thank "????" for taggin on ma shoutbox.. really APPRECIATE IT.. well.. wen u said dat im da one who's controllin ma mind, well, i have to agree.. hmmz.. but anyway, thx for bein so busybody.. hah! next tym, if u dun mind, pls include ur name rather den juz "????"... in future, it wun be entertain.. heh..

so enuf bout dat.. hmmz.. juz hang up da fone from ordering macdonalds.. dad wanna eat big mac.. so ok.. order it for him oreadi.. ordered quite alot.. cam org gebulor.. haha.. but, dat is till night lah kan.. so ok lor.. now juz waiting for da delivery man to come.. afta dat can yum yum.. haha..

erm.. wen prince found out dat im havin depression ytd, he was very worried.. sorie bout dat.. heez.. but im fine.. juz need sum fresh air.. maybe coz ive been stuck in dis house everyday.. went out only for a while.. hmmz.. so yeah.. but nvm.. all i need to do now is to juz think of happy touts.. heez.. so ok lah..

erm.. me got nothing else to type oreadi.. so will update next tym..



p/s: dos who wanna be busybody, can do it elsewhere.. here, u wun be entertain.. thx..

haiz..

today.. woke up from sleep.. mum informin me dat dad wanna eat spring chicken.. haiz.. mcm2 seh.. haiyo.. so ok lor.. i went in da evening juz now.. he even wanted kway teow hong kong.. hmmz.. mcm2 dia nak.. haiz.. so went to jurong west at Makan Shiok coffee shop bout for dad da things dat he wanted.. but i didnt bought for mine..

while ordering food at da seafood stall, i saw abg didi's gf.. cant remember her name.. so i juz said hi.. hmmz.. afta dat order food at da western stall.. dad earlier asked me to buy some curry puffs.. but i didnt.. lau beli confirm membazir.. hmmz.. so reached home.. woke dad up.. prepare all da food in front of him.. den he said he dun wanna eat da mee oreadi.. coz ders cili.. i told him, can juz take da cili out wat.. but he still dun wan.. aaaarrrgghh... so wasted.. den he ate da spring chicken.. only da thigh part.. wah seh... i felt lyk banging ma head hard on da wall seh.. haiz.. super membazir.. haiz.. lau leh tak nak li kan ape yg dia suruh seh.. bkn ape.. dia mkn pun stakat nak rasa.. beh nanti kata muak lah.. ape lah.. haiz..

so end up, i finished up da spring chicken... dah tak leh nak diet.. haiz.. while eating, im suffering from chest pain.. super painful till i cant breathe.. haiz.. but now im ok lah.. ate da medicine oreadi.. hmmz.. n i think im havin depression.. look out for da symptoms below...

Symptoms include:

* Persistent sad, anxious or "empty" feelings
* Feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism
* Feelings of guilt, worthlessness and/or helplessness
* Irritability, restlessness
* Loss of interest in activities or hobbies once pleasurable, including sex
* Fatigue and decreased energy
* Difficulty concentrating, remembering details and making decisions
* Insomnia, early–morning wakefulness, or excessive sleeping
* Overeating, or appetite loss
* Thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts
* Persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment

im havin most of da symptoms.. sheesh.. dun tell me i need to go see da doc kan.. haiz.. k lah.. i gtg rest..

dad's back home..

juz reached home around an hour ago.. fetched dad from da hospital juz now.. he was very excited to finally get to go home.. hehe..

so in da morning, nurse called informin dat dad will be able to go home today.. den mama hurry me to get ready.. so i was wondering.. y is she in a rush? he'll be discharged only in da aftanoon wat.. haiyo.. so mama all along tout dat once we've reached hospital, papa can go back oreadi.. but nope.. she's wrong.. haha..

once we've reached hospital, papa was on blood transfusion again.. so i double check wif him lor.. tanya ni dah boleh balik ke belum.. Bp low lagi ke pe.. haiyo.. den papa said once done wif da blood transfusion, can go home oreadi.. hmmz.. so ok.. mama wanted to take urgent leave.. but unable too.. coz her workplace is havin chaos oreadi.. nobody wanna replace.. haiz.. so around 12.30pm mama went back 1st lor..

hmmz.. few mins afta mama went home, papa told me sumthin.. he said dat da indian guy from bed 1 who passed away yesterday, his soul was wondering in da room.. i asked papa lah how come he noes.. he saw dat guy meh.. den papa said he didnt get to see him but smell lah.. 3 tyms.. den papa said to his soul.. "balk ke tempat kau.. ni bkn tempat kau lagi.." den afta dat, dad didnt smell anything liao.. sheesh.. scary seh.. hmmz.. so by 2 plus, blood transfusion finished.. dad went to da toilet to change clothes.. yay..!! goin back home tym.. but before dat, have to wait for da medicine n da discharged summary lor.. received all dat den we went home.. yay.. hehe.. papa is so happy seh.. haha..

so reached home, papa said he wanna eat da painkillers.. his lower back pain liao.. so ok lor.. gave him da medicine den asked him to rest.. asked him to rest on da bed, cannot.. back pain.. so now restin on da sofa.. hmmz.. so ok lor.. juz hope dat he'll be recovered.. hmmz.. oh ya.. on da 5th feb, is his appt.. i think datz da date dat he'll be goin for chemotherapy.. hope dat he'll be strong.. insya'allah.. amin.. ok lah.. i wanna rest for a while.. will update again another tym.. cheers..!!

Happy 2 Mths Anniversary Bie...!!!

today, 18th January 2009 is me n prince 2 mths anniversary.. well.. ppl might say.. "alah.. ru 2 months.. takkan tu pun nak kecoh.. nak celebrate..." hmmz.. tu org nak ckp tu diorg peh pasal.. it does mean a lot to me.. it shows dat we can really get along well.. be together till dis day.. hmmz.. even thou itz been 2 mths but gone thru lots of ups n downs.. gone thru hard tyms.. bad tyms.. i mean, now we cant spend so much tym together lyk we used too.. he's busy wif his work n his band.. me, busy taking care of dad.. well.. both us always miss each other badly.. so wat we do is to juz call up each other.. chat on msn.. send latest fotos.. heez.. so ok lor.. communication is impt too ok.. heez..

so prince is on leave today.. accompany me in da hospital to take care of dad.. hmmz.. i went to da hospital 1st. once ive reached, der were chaos.. lots of ppl were outside da ward.. so i wonder wat is happening.. went to da room dat ma dad is in n saw i bed wif curtains close.. heard sum1 crying.. so i guess org tu ngah nazak.. kesian lah jgk.. ru jgk berbual ngan org tu aritu.. hmmz.. semlm dia dah start sesak nafas for da whole day.. hmmz.. wat i noe is dat he's havin da same sickness as papa.. tapi dia pun ada paru2 berair.. itz quite narrow oreadi.. datz y he needs oxygen to breath.. hmmz.. pity him.. but wat to do.. i sat der quietly.. lookin at em.. talked to dad for a while.. den i saw da staff pushing another bed.. so i guess he's passed away.. haiz.. kesian.. i was holdin back ma tears so i juz kept quiet n smsed prince.. askin him where is he.. almost 3pm i think den prince reached.. me so damn hungry liao seh.. haha.. tout of buying food den prince said no need.. he brought for us food oreadi.. mummy cooked nasi ayam.. wah.. thx mummy.. thx for da trouble.. but susah2 jek.. hehe..

sat outside da ward, ate da nasi ayam.. wah.. nice seh.. mummy can open chicken rice shop.. hehe.. sambal dia pun sedap.. prince yg buat.. prince leh open kedai cili nasi ayam.. hahahahahaha.. but seriously, itz nice lah.. hehe.. prince finished eating den i asked him to accompany papa.. see wat he wants.. lau leh urut, urut kan lah.. hehe.. me eat slow2.. coz ngah kepedasan.. haha.. oh ya.. b4 eat, prince gave me something for our anniversary.. take a look below..



hehe.. itz a 6 disc cd ok.. all love songs.. well.. actually he can really read ma mind.. coz ive been searching for love songs lah actually.. hehe.. so got it.. Yay!!! im happy lah of coz.. all of it is ma fav song ok.. of course i love da gift.. but sorry bie.. i dun have anything to give u.. really sorry.. no idea oso on wat to give u.. erm... briefs nak?? hahahaha.. gurau jek.. hehe.. so once me done eating, sat down wif pa n prince.. baca buku Jokes.. laugh to maself.. pai papa kata aku siao.. haha.. beh kelakar.. tawe lah.. lau buku tu kelakar beh tak tawe tu dah lain cerita kan.. haha.. den me asked papa to take a rest 1st.. tido.. coz last night he didnt sleep.. he's in pain again.. haiyo.. poor thing kan.. hmmz.. so me n dear walk around da hosp.. den wen to 7-11 by newspaper n things to munch.. den we sat in da lobby.. n prince said he felt lyk eating something.. so ok lor.. he came back wif Mag-A-Cone (i think datz da name) ice-cream.. hehe.. yay! but vanilla flavor.. but ok lah.. org dah li kan.. mkn je lah.. hehe.. once done, we went up.. few mins later bik ani fam came.. hmmz.. so ok.. chat wif em for a while.. prince sat outside.. kesian seh tgk dia kena dok sorg2.. nak teman tapi camne kan.. hmmz.. prince said dey look at him one kind.. oh well.. hmmz.. dlm kul brape gitu diorg alik..

so me n prince chit chat for a while.. layan papa.. den ma other aunts, uncles, cousins came.. bik enca bwk kan papa roti boyan.. da one dat he wanted.. so itz mkn tym.. papa ate 3 slices of da roti boyan.. abis lah jgk.. dpt jgk dia mkn ape yg dia nak.. ni lagi satu lum dpt.. sup tulang.. dat one he will get it on Tues.. bik juju said kak suzi will help to buy.. heez.. thx a lot for ya help kak suzi.. really appreciate it.. heez.. so lyn dem for a while till dey went back.. hmmz.. b4 me n prince went back, i help to massage papa's leg.. sambil tu letak lotion.. his skin so very dry seh.. den makin kurus.. lain plak rasanya bila urut kaki dia tu.. hmmz.. pas dah urut tu suma me n prince alik lah.. prince send me back home.. yay!!! get to spend tym wif him at last.. mish him so much seh.. get to hug him tight2 as long as i wanted.. hehe..

thx bie.. thx for accompanying me today.. n sorie bab tak dpt lyn bila ma relatives dtg.. n really thx for da gift.. thx for da wonderful day today even thou we spend our tym only in da hospital.. i love u so so much.. thx for loving me for who i am.. muackz..!!!! cheers..!! hehe..

Saturday... 17th Jan 09..

hmmz.. nothing much happen today.. went to hospital quite late today.. lappy sumthin wrong.. suddenly auto shut again.. sheesh.. but at last able to on again... wonder wat happen.. hmmz.. so while scanning da whole lappy, me update me bloggie.. juz post in lyrics of songs from Taufik Batisah.. yay!! heard most of his latest songs.. n i supposed it is da best n meaningful songs dat ive heard.. heez.. im a fan of taufik ok.. wateva it is, must support local.. heez.. so done scanning, me went out lor.. went to da hospital.. gotta noe dat papa is able to eat oreadi.. but unable to come back home.. oh well.. see how 2mrw.. hmmz..

b4 i went out of da house, heard mama called ma aunt askin her for help to make da roti boyan.. same lyk how ma late grandma did.. hmmz.. den she asked a favor from ma uncle to help buy sup tulang at Beach Road.. gosh.. for all place, he asked for Beach road nye.. haiyo.. den papa called me askin me to buy for him toasted kaya bread n tea.. den he called again, askin me to buy egg tart.. haiyo.. den i asked him back lah.. "juz now i tout u ate porridge oreadi.. how come so fast hungry??" den he said dat he did not finished da food.. haiyo.. papa.. papa.. hmmz..

once reached hospital, bought things at 7-11 first den i went to da kopitiam, bought ma food n da things dat ma papa asked for.. went up, itz tea break oreadi.. papa got milo n biscuit.. but he only drank a bit of milo.. he only wants to drink tea.. n he ate da toast bread.. hmmz.. looks lyk his appetite quite good.. ate quite a lot lor.. hmmz.. i think i noe y papa dun wanna eat da porridge.. coz he claimed dat itz not nice.. smell only makes him wanna vomit.. hmmz.. poor thing rite.. who wouldnt want to vomit.. even i smell oso makes me feel nauseous.. haha.. everyday receive porridge wif veggie n either chicken or fish curry.. y must it always be curry eh? takkan takde lauk lain kan.. tgk org lain mkn sedap jek.. hmmz.. so ok lor.. accompany papa eat.. i oso eat.. haha.. hungry leh.. so done eating, papa rest, i read da newspaper.. bored to da max liao.. heez.. den papa need to go toilet, i accompany lor.. 4 tyms in total till i went back lah.. heez.. all bcoz, he ate orange fruit.. heez..

so da one who visit papa today is papa's colleague, paman kamis.. mak long n pak long.. mak long sick2 oso wanna visit papa.. haiyo.. so poor thing.. den she talked to me bout ana.. she was kinda angry lah.. asked me wat kind of job is ana working as.. coz mak long said she work for one day from morning till night den da rest of da days not working.. so mak long asked lor.. if she's working, where's da money.. hmmz.. i was totally speechless seh.. dunno wat to say. takot jek ckp salah.. ada kang aku lak yg kena marah.. hmmz.. so na.. if u read dis, once u got ur pay, show it to mak long.. prove it to her dat ya workin k.. she even asked me, y must u lie to her? so how do u expect me to answer her? i all da way kept quiet u noe.. really dunno wat to say seh.. hmmz.. she even scold me.. asked me to find a job.. but how to kan.. i need to take care of pa.. if i got sumone else to help den ok lah.. hmmz.. wateva it is, juz take care of mak long n pak long k.. dun angry2 wif dem.. hmmz..

ok lah.. datz all for now.. will update again another tym.. peace out..

Suria Hatiku by Taufik Batisah

Kini ku sedari siapa diriku ini
Yang takkan berdiri tanpa dirimu disisi

Bridge:
Cintamu suci tak berbelah bagi
Isi hatimu takkan ku mengerti
Kan ku abadikan
Saat denganmu
Di dalam lukisan hidupku

Chorus:
Untukmu kasih
I'll give the very best of me
Kau selalu membarakan semangatku

Untukmu kasih
I'll be there when you're needing me
Biar hariku menentang waktu
Tetap kau suria hatiku

Meski diriku tak sesempurna
Yang ku ingini (kau tetap setia)
Kau masih hadir di setiap
Langkah hidupku ini

(bridge & chorus)

Untukmu kasihku
Ku tujukan segala untukmu
Sayangku
Hidup tak berarah tanpamu

Suria Hatiku - Taufik Batisah


Ma dear prince.. dis song goes out to u...!!! hehe.. u mean everything to me.. love ya lots.. muackz!

Nafasku by Taufik Batisah

Kasihmu
Di luar jangkaanku
Sulit rasanya hidupku tanpamu
Usah kau pergi jauh

Aku berjanji
Cintamu ku bawa mati
Tak inginku mula cerita baru
Diriku teruntuk kamu
(Semuanya untuk kamu)

Chorus:
Setiap nafasku
Berpesan padamu
Jangan pernah
Tinggalkan diriku

Sentiasa hadir
Di jalan hidupku
Yakini cintaku
Untuk kamu
(Hanya untukmu)

Aku menanti
Ketibaan hari itu
Saatnya kau mengucap cinta sejati
Dua menjadi satu

Aku mengerti
Kata-kataku percuma
Hingga tiba suatu masa
Semuakan menjadi nyata

(chorus)

Untuk kamu ku serah segala
Untuk kamu ku beri bahagia
Untuk kamu ku janji setia
Untuk kamu...

Nafasku - Taufik Batisah

Kepadanya by Taufik Batisah Feat. Hady Mirza

Jiwa tersiksa
Hina terasa
Berikan ku pelita
Hadirkan cahaya

Ku masih tertanya
Ke mana arahku
Untuk hidup didunia
Beriku petanda

Chorus:
Wahai manusia
Sedarlah dirimu
Hidup didunia hanya sementara
Dekatkan diri padanya

Biar terluka
Hapuskan sangsimu
Ialah petunjuk buat segalanya
Arahkan diri padanya

Oh....
Arahkan dirimu...
Kepadanya...

(chorus x2)

Dan bila kau tertanya
Ke manakah hala jalan
Hidupmu...
Ialah jawapan
Untukmu...

(chorus x2)

KepadaNya - Taufik Batisah feat. HADY MIRZA


hearing dis song really taught me something.. dat life is short.. cherish ur love ones before itz too late.. hmmz.. appreciate wateva dat dey've done.. dun ever forget to say thank u.. n even apologize weneva we make mistakes.. most importantly, is to be close to God..

Bila Kasih Menyepi by Nurun Nuwwarah

Jiwa gersang
Merana kelam
Memburu kasihmu
Yang terhalang

Hatiku kekosongan
Merintih kerinduan
cintamu lara
Bergetar jiwa raga

Kurasa dalam diri
Jeritan dalam hati
Bila kasih menyepi

Biar hati
Bersama lagi
Menyinar sejuta
Warna hati

Kasihku bertebaran
Membisik kata madah
Cintamu indah
Mengalun nada jiwa

Kurasa dalam diri
Jeritan dalam hati
Bila kasih menyepi

Bila Kasih Menyepi - Nurun Nuwarah

dad craves for food..

so m back from hospital.. brought ma lappy but unable to connect thru da wireless.. actually can ar.. but da wireless is from NUS.. takkan nak kai kan.. not a student or a staff seh.. heez.. so all i did was playin game.. bored to da max lah seh.. dpt main game pun kira ok lah kan.. hmmz..

so dad is only able to take clear fluids today.. kesian kan.. tapi takpe lah.. at least dapat minum soup n air.. while i was playin game, da therapist came.. wanna see if papa is strong enuf to move about or not.. so ok lor.. me juz look at wat she's doin to ma dad so ok lor.. den ma aunts n cousin came over.. talk to dad for a while.. around 4 plus den dey went back.. so all da way im alone.. till almost 8pm den ana n fad came.. a few mins later, ma aunt n uncle came.. chit chat for a while.. ana massage papa leg.. chit chat again.. den around 9 plus den we went back home..

me tompang ana n fad take cab.. send em kat lakeside... so ok lor.. reach home sat down for a while.. tout of callin macdelivery.. hungry.. but end up tak jadi.. dun feel lyk eatin oreadi.. hmmz.. now i all da way facing ma lappy.. waiting for ma prince to online.. so ok.. hmmz.. n da header pic u see above, is actually ma prince bloggie.. juz to promote.. heez.. oh ya.. papa juz now said he's craving for roti boyan n sup tulang.. gosh.. sakit2 gini mintak mcm2.. nanti dah beli, tak mkn.. hmmz.. ada2 je lah.. ok lah.. nothing else to uddate oreadi.. will update again other tym..

yet another day..

so dad still need to stay in da hosp.. early morning he went for scope.. so ok lor.. mum went to hosp early mornin.. ma uncle was der.. baba sairi.. he see papa n gav him a bottle of so called holy water.. but too bad papa cant eat anything..

mum reached home around 12 plus but i still havent go out to da hospital.. heez.. penat lah seh.. kepala berat lagi.. hmmz.. so me laggin till 1 plus.. dapat ma prince peh sms ckp yg dia dah pai hosp.. so ape lagi.. gue pun kelam kabut kluar.. heez.. lappy pun lupa nak bwk.. hehe.. prince went to hospital juz to accompany his mum for eye checkup.. heez.. so once me reached hosp, me sms him lor.. den buy food.. tapau it n eat in da ward.. reached ward, saw papa sleep.. buat bising pun papa tak bangun.. mungkin dah penat sangat lah tu.. heez.. so me sat outside n eat lor.. while eatin, prince called.. so teman mamam lah plak.. haha.. berapa byk aku nak mam nie? wekekeke.. once im done eatin, see papa for awhile den i went to da lobby.. to meet prince n mummy.. accompany em eat lor.. n dunno y prince so da clumsy.. haha.. plastic knife drop on da floor.. press da cup lid so hard till da drink splash.. haha.. ciannye dia.. mummy said, he saw me oreadi, he became clumsy.. haha.. so once done eatin, me buy pandan cake for papa.. juz in case if he can eat oreadi..

we reached da ward n saw on da table ders an envelope.. itz da scope results.. so read n look at da pics.. gotta noe dat his tumor or sumthin in his tummy, bleeds at 3 places.. so dey managed to stop da bleeding.. n now he's unable to eat nor drink.. poor thing rite.. hmmz.. mummy chat wif papa for a while den around 5pm dey went back home.. upset dat i only get to meet prince for a while.. but wat to do.. hmmz.. takkan nak suh mummy alik sendiri kan.. mustn't think of maself k.. heez..

all da way, i accompany dad.. while dad is sleepin, i was doin sumthin.. writing down contact nos on da book which ive juz bought.. den read magazine, read newspaper.. till i so bored oreadi.. no one else visit papa today.. so ok lor.. hmmz.. went home around 8 plus.. before dat, massage papa 1st.. so ok.. datz all ive done for da day.. 2mrw, we'll see if papa can eat or go home oreadi.. hmmz.. wateva it is, must remember to bring lappy 2mrw.. in case im bored.. n a few dvds or vcds.. hehe.. orite.. gtg sleep now.. dun wan ma prince to nag at me to go to sleep.. hahaha.. peace out..

Ehemz.. Got dis from Frensta Bulletin..

Saje2 je post dis bulletin.. sape nak baca, baca lah ek.. heez..


►GEMINI - HARD TO LOVE (5/21-6/21) Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser. EXTREMELY adorable. Good personalities.
Loves relationships. Addictive. Loud.

►ARIES - THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. (3/21-4/19) Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners..Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. NOT one to mess with.

►VIRGO - THE BEST SEXUAL PARTNER (8/23-9/22) Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. EXTREMELY SEXY. Predict future. Loves being in long relationships. Has lots of friends. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Also not a fighter, but if they have to, they will also knock the lights out of you if it comes down to it. Cool. Loves to own Geminis' in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

►SCORPIO - THE VIRGIN (10/23-11/21) Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person.

►AQUARIUS - THE ONE U CAN'T TOUCH (1/20-2/18) Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to Have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Attractive. Loud. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

►TAURUS - THE BAD BOY OR GIRL (4/20-5/20) Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great at telling Stories. Best kisser. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you
should hold on to.

►CANCER - HARD TO CATCH THEIR HEART (6/22-7/22) Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being In long- term relationships, if you can actually get them to stick around. Extremely energetic. Wild. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Normally not a Fighter, but will if neccessary. Someone loves them right now, they just dont know it.

►LIBRA - THE PIMP (9/23-10/22) Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor. Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

►PISCES - THE SEX ADDICT (2/19-3/20) EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. BEST kisser. Always get what they want. Very Attractive. Easy going. RARE Find. GOOD when found. Loves being in long relationship. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. NOT one to mess with.

►LEO - THE SEX MANIAC (7/23-8/22) Very talkative. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and SEXY. Have own unique appeal. Irresistible. Most caring person you'll ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with...they will kick your ***... u might end up crying...

►CAPRICORN - THE SEXY ONE (12/22-1/19) Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always Wants the last word.Rare to find. Caring. Smart. Sweet. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please.Loves to smile.Beautiful laugh.Patient.Amazing in the you know where..!!! Bit of naughty.The one and only.Sincere..very cheeky.

Dad hospitalised again...

hmmz.. juz came back home from da hospital... send dad for his checkup dis morning... reached der around 9.30am.. register... waited for dad's queue no to be call up.. take blood test.. measure height n weight.. hmmz.. lost weight again.. ishk.. his weight is only 45kg.. how light is dat.. haiyo.. so done dat, wait for queue no to be call out to see da doc.. sheesh.. waited so long seh.. until itz around 1pm den able to see da doc.. but before dat, dad has to retake da blood test..

hmmz.. so in da room.. told doc wateva medicine he took.. wateva pain he's goin thru.. n wateva info dat da doc needs to noe.. hmmz.. so da doc said sum stuff.. do sum check on dad.. waited outside again.. den doc came over to me and said dat, dad need to be warded coz his HP is only 6 n dat is low.. so he need to do blood transfusion.. hmmz.. dah agak dah.. so i juz said ok lor.. itz betta lah actually.. hmmz.. so have to wait again.. dad hav to go take blood test again.. gosh.. 3 times oreadi seh.. hmmz.. den i settled all dos paperwork.. heez.. done all dat, waited again.. till itz 2 plus.. den da nurse called ma dad.. need to send him to ward oreadi.. so me n mum go eat 1st while he settle in da ward.. hehe.. lapar seh.. dari smlm tau eh tak mkn.. hehe.. dah eat den we walk to da main buildin.. sheesh.. so da keliru.. heez.. saw papa in da ward.. restin liao.. n da most amazin thing is, da pain dat he's been suffering all night, has gone.. haha.. pelik tapi benar.. wakakakka.. so, chitty chat wif dad for a while den me n mum went out to KKH.. wanna see ma aunt.. juz came back from operation wen we reached der.. hmmz.. talked to her for a while.. she said she's feelin giddy.. den starts to feel da pain from da operation.. hmmz.. kesian kan.. so dah talk to ibu, we sat outside.. pai terlelap lah seh.. haha.. so around 6.30pm, we go off from der.. need to go back to NUH.. see dad again.. heez.. tired.. but.. wat to do.. supposed to go for Balqis meetin, but unable to go coz need to take care of dad.. hmmz.. so by 9.30pm. me n mum went home.. too tired oreadi.. really need sum sleep.. hmmz..

tomorrow will be ma prince's turn to accompany mummy.. mummy needs to go for eye checkup.. if im not wrong.. n i'll get to meet ma prince..!! yay..!!! m so mishin him lyk cwazy.. hehe.. cant wait to meet u tmrw prince..!! weeeeeee!!! hehe.. muackz!

Sleepless...

Till now still unable to sleep.. felt sleepy.. but.. hmmz.. was in ma parents room since yesterday.. haiz.. dad is still in pain.. pinggang dia makin sakit.. dis is makin me more worried.. haiz.. if can, wen we go to hospital for a check up later on, i juz want him to be admitted to hospital.. itz not dat i dun want him to be at home.. but we juz dun hav da equipment to take care of him.. wat we hav is only his medicine.. beh.. lau dah mkn tak jln jgk camne seh? haiz..

ni nasib baik aku tak tido.. lau tak camne.. aku jgk yg papa cari.. urut kaki dia lah.. angkat dia bgn.. haiz.. it hurts to see him lyk dis.. sumtyms i wonder.. y wont it happen to me..? y cant i juz be da one to suffer? hmmz.. but i noe.. all dis is not up to me.. all dis is fate.. ape2 yg berlaku pasti ada hikmah disebaliknye.. hmm..

aku skg nie dah ngantok rabak.. seriously.. beh nak buat camne seh.. he's been screamin in pain since juz now.. nak nangis pun ada.. aku tgk mama pun kesian tapi klakar lah jgk.. urut2 kaki papa ngan mata kejam.. dah ngantok sangat seh tu.. tiap2 mlm asyik bgn tdo bgn tdo jek.. hmmz.. kepala aku dah start sakit alik.. dah start ada migraine.. gosh.. head hurts so bad.. dari smlm lum mkn.. cuma mkn pau jek.. perut pun dah lapar to da max seh nie.. hish..

k lah.. really need to rest lah.. but before dat, need to take care of papa 1st.. meraung lagi dia tu.. haiz..

Decode by Paramore

How can I decide what’s right,
when you’re clouding up my mind?
I can’t win your losing fight all the time

Not gonna ever own what’s mine,
when you’re always taking sides.
But you won’t take away my pride.
No, not this time.
Not this time.

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well
But, how did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes,
and it’s hanging on your tongue.
Just boiling in my blood.
But you think that I can’t see
what kind of man that you are;
if you’re a man at all.
Well, I will figure this one outon my own.
(I’m screaming, “I love you so”)
On my own(My thoughts you can’t decode!!)

How did we get here?
when I used to know you so well (yeah)
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Do you see what we’ve done?
We’ve gone and made such fools
of ourselves.
Do you see what we’ve done?
We’ve gone and made such fools
of ourselves.

How did we get here?
when I used to know you so well (Yeah, yeah, yeah!)
Well, how did we get here?
when I used to know you so well.
I think I know...
I think I know...

There is something I see in you,
it might kill me.
I want it to be true.

lappy recovered...

lappy has oreadi recovered.. juz brought it back dis evening.. changed da hard disk to 160GB.. den sumthin else dat has been changed... forget oreadi wat is it.. hmmz.. so now.. me got most things changed... except for da keyboard.. sum of da keys dah tak leh kai.. lau nak tukar, have to pay another $60... next tym ar.. now ngah low financial.. dad is totally sick.. hav been takin care of him everyday.. hmmz.. unable to find for job.. hav to wait till everything is stablised.. hmmz.. everyday ive been puttin on a strong front.. wen actually inside, im totally worried.. scared.. wonder how it'll be if he's no longer around.. haiz.. left me n mum.. haiz.. sumtyms i do feel lyk cryin.. but i juz hold back ma tears.. i pity mum coz she needs to work.. hmmz.. me stayin at home do feel stressed out.. dpt kluar jap pun kene call suruh balik.. haiz.. unable to spend much tym wif ma prince.. but wat to do.. all dis is sacrifice.. haiz... dad's condition rite now is lyk getting sort of worse.. cuma pinggang dia je lah.. perut dah tak rasa sakit.. pinggang dia je yg slalu buat dia terjerit-jerit kesakitan.. hmmz.. tapi kekadang, kepala dia pun sakit.. hmmz.. aku cuma khuatir.. takot benda tu dah merebak.. tapi ape pun, aku berdoa semoga semua nya takde pape.. juz hope dat he'll get betta.. be a survivor.. hope dat he'll be strong enuf to go thru all dos obstacle.. insya'allah.. amin.. hmmz.. i juz thank God dat i still have families, frenz n dear around me.. to give me deir support, advices.. really thank em so much for all deir help...

itz been so long..

dah lama tak online eh... pc n lappy still lum hantar for repair.. hmmz.. within da past few months, a lot of things have happen.. uncle got married.. frenz got married.. hmmz.. byk lah eh.. got new boyfren.. heez.. unbelievable but true.. latest is bout me dad.. kena admitted to hospital since 19th Dec at Alexandra Hospital.. den transfered to NUH on da 24th.. hmmz.. been der for him for lyk, everyday.. cousins ada yg accompany.. boyfie pun ada company jgk.. so ok lor.. lau tak bored jek.. nothin to do other den takin care of ma dad.. hmmz.. ape yg dad hidap tu ada lah penyakit nye.. rather not say.. itz juz between me n famz.. so today is ma bdae.. dad pun dah alik dari hospital.. datz good lah kan.. alhamdulillah.. heez..


hmmz.. ok lah.. no idea oreadi.. will update again da next tym.. peace..